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Day 114a; Concert Survey.

Andi. Feb 15, 2010

First concert? Lollapalooza in 2005.  OK Go was the first band that we saw.  This was like, when the backyard dance was first debuted.  

Last concert? Mark Rose, Cavashawn, Sing It Loud, and The Academy Is...

How many concerts have you been to? Too many to count..

Best band to see live? Sing It Loud.  They're so energetic on stage.

Worst band to see live? Ours.  They suckedddddd.

Life-changing concert? Envy on the Coast at Mojoe's; and I feel like there's another but I can't think of it.

Best friend to go to a concert with? Rhiannnnnna O'Shea. :)

Worst Friend to go to a concert with? I love Vicky to death, but she's kind of obnoxious to go to small shows with.  Big shows are fine, but the EOTC show at Reggies was awkward.

Best thing to bring to a concert? yo'self.

Worst thing to bring to a concert? high-heeled shoes, a tutu (unless you're being ironic, or at a Miley Cyrus concert), a guitar, someone clingy.

Best season to go to concerts? Spring! My favorite shows have all been spring shows.

Best concert memory? LOL, stopping on the side of the road to help EOTC with a flat tire?  Folk from Folk & Stress asking us to smoke weed with him?  Pat Brown accidentally holding my hand?  Seeing All Time Low from on stage and standing next to Aaron Gillespie?  All of those were amazing.  :D

Funnest thing ever done at a concert? Wall of Death at Killswitch Engage is still one of the best memories.  Also, jumping and dancing so much that people glared at me.

Worst thing ever done at a concert? I punched a girl in the face at NeverShoutNever.  Ahaaahahaha.  I also gave my phone number to a guy who said he was in As Above So Below, but was actually not in AASB.

Longest concert ever attended? Warped Tour.  Four days this summer.  aahhhhhhhaslkdjf.

Upcoming concerts wishing to attend? Motion City and Sing It Loud!  Also, the Nate Flynn acoustic show will be like 5 types of awkward.  Actually, no.  Let's see.  There will be like 13 people there?  So probably like 10 types of awkward.  Because certain people are on the same page about things.

Age people should start going to concerts? Whenever they feel ready to start going.

Age people should stop going to concerts? NEVER!  My mommy wants to go see HIM in April, and she's 49.  She can do what she wants.  :)

Stupidest thing to get at a concert?

Coolest thing to get at a concert? Memories. :D

Most annoying thing at a concert? Fangirls.

Outdoor concerts or indoor concerts? Depends on what type of bands.  I live in the upper Midwest, so indoor is normally the thing, but I wouldn't like a permanently outdoor version of the Rave, either.

Clubs or larger venues? Clubs, mostly.

Favorite venue? Mojoe's was sweeeeeeet.  I really like The Metro, too, but I dislike their lack of parking.  First Ave was pretty sweet, too.

Least favorite venue? Reggie's was sketchy as all.

Name three bands that you would love to see tour together: Motion City Soundtrack, Sing It Loud, and Envy on the Coast.  It would never happen because Sing It Loud would never tour with EOTC, because their music is far too different.

One band that you would love to see reunite for a tour: Midtown.  The Morning Light, because seeing Sing It Loud will never be the same without The Morning Light there, too.

Do you prefer seats or the pit? Pit!

Do you usually buy food/drinks at a concert? It's expensive!  If I have drink tickets at the Rave I'll use them, though.

Hardest concert you've had to get tickets for? Tourzilla! Morgan bought sketchy eBay tickets.

Best music to see live? I loooove dance-y music.

Nudity at a concert: yes or no? bahaha. what.  if it's on stage, i don't care, but i don't want a nude mosher.

Drinking at a concert: yes or no? I'd prefer not.  Most who drink at concerts are belligerently drunk and reek of alcohol.

Best way to end a concert: Talking with the bands.  :)

Day 111; this survey was stolen from Kaity.

Andi. Feb 12, 2010

10 things you want:

  1. Money to pay for college
  2. a car. nothing fancy, just something that runs and gets okay gas mileage.
  3. a DSLR camera. 
  4. this really awesome hollow-body Ibanez guitar from White House of Music.
  5. for my friends from Minnesota and my friends from Wisconsin to meet each other!
  6. a trip to Ashland so that I can see Sarah
  7. more initiative to study Chinese. that's the one thing i always forget to study. :|
  8. to live in Comstock instead of Middlebrook
  9. polaroid film
  10. tickets to see Motion City Soundtrack on April 9.

9 musicians/bands you love:

  1. Motion City Soundtrack
  2. Envy on the Coast
  3. The Academy Is...
  4. All Time Low
  5. Sing It Loud
  6. Jimmy Eat World
  7. You Me At Six
  8. Fall Out Boy
  9. The Maine

8 things you do everyday:

  1. Breathe
  2. Sleep
  3. Drink water
  4. Eat
  5. Walk
  6. Speak in more than one language
  7. Sing
  8. Listen to Music

7 things you enjoy:

  1. Music.
  2. Friends
  3. Family
  4. Writing.
  5. Singing
  6. Smiling
  7. Concerts.

6 things that will always win your heart:

  1. Honesty
  2. Great personailty
  3. Nice eyes.
  4. Mixtapes (I should have been a teen in the 1990s. :P  )
  5. Hand written notes.
  6. Willingness to talk/listen.

5 favorites:

  • Movie: Wristcutters: A Love Story
  • Song: Jasey Rae - All Time Low
  • Food: Vegetarian Chicken Nuggets
  • Season: Fall!
  • Place: Minnesota

4 smells or scents you enjoy:

  1. Wintergreen mint gum
  2. Fresh-baked chocolate chip cookies
  3. The cologne that both Will and Jeremy wear.
  4. This sounds weird, but when some people have a guardian angel, they find pennies in their shoes or they see a number all the time or something, but for me, it's this certain smell that I'll occasionally and out of nowhere catch in the air.  That smell is actually probably number one.

3 places you want to go:

  1. California
  2. Australia
  3. Vermont

2 Favorite Holidays

  1. Halloween
  2. Thanksgiving

1 person you'd marry on the spot:

  1. That would be weird to meet someone and then immediately get married.  Like arraigned marriages, I'm not a fan of those, personally.  So I don't think there's anyone I'd marry "on the spot".  Actually, there's no one I'd really want to marry right now, at all.

Steel Train

Andi. Feb 09, 2010

Steel Train

Steel Train is a five-piece indie-rock/folk-rock band from New Jersey.  Friends Jack Antonoff and Scott Irby-Ranniar began playing street shows together in New York City in 1999.  They adopted the name Steel Train from a Sublime song, and amongst an array of offers from record labels, they chose to sign to indie label Drive Thru Records (but left the label in late 2009).  They released their first EP, For You My Dear, in 2003.  In 2004, they released the EP 1969, a CD of covers of songs all originally released in 1969.  Their two full length CDs, Twilight Tales from the Prairies of the Sun and Trampoline in 2005 and 2007, respectively.  

Their sound is described by Yahoo Music as being similar to "Southern rock revivalists" Kings of Leon and My Morning Jacket, but with a definitive post-punk twist.  Their music is also described as "classic radio rock sent through a few hipster fuzz pedals".  SPIN magazine states that they borrow as much from Bob Dylan's style as Fall Out Boy's.  

Steel Train consists of:
Jack Antonoff - vocals, guitar and piano
Evan Winiker - bass
 Daniel Silbert - guitar
Jon Shiffman - drums
Justin Huey - vocals, piano, Wurlitzer

On the tabloid side of fame, Jack Anatoff dated actress Scarlett Johansson, and explicitly mentions her in numerous songs on Trampoline.   

Steel Train is currently working on songs for their third full-length, the progress of which is being tracked on their studio blog. 


Check out their music on MySpace, PureVolume, iTunes, etc.

Day 088; The World.

Andi. Jan 20, 2010

I don’t understand people.

I’m really happy that I’ve made new friends.  I’m really happy that I live five hours from home.  I’m really happy I’m going to a school I’ve wanted to go to for 3 years.

I’m really happy that I have a boyfriend who is also my best friend.  I’m really happy that I have Rhianna and Sarah and Adam and Amber and all my other friends back home.

I’m okay with only being able to see them on occasion, because we have the internet, and we have strong friendships.

I am proud of myself for overcoming the events of the past six months, and all of the bad decisions that I have made.  In this moment, I am putting them all behind me.

I am excited that my house has the prospect of selling, I’m glad that my dad is starting a new business, and I’m excited for my mom in her hunt for a job that pays better and will give her more hours.

I’ve come to term with the fact that my parents aren’t going to help my pay for college.  At the end of my four years, plus however long I’m in grad school, I’ll have a lot of money to pay off.  But I’ll be very proud of myself and what I’ve accomplished by the time that the loans are paid off, I’m sure of it.

I’m excited at the prospect of getting a job, so that I can begin to save up for college and for things like an apartment and a car in the future.  I’ve been on my own to pay for almost everything that I get, with the exception of birthday gifts and necessities (ie, food, sometimes face wash, shampoo, deodorant, etc) since junior year when I got a job at Pick’n’Save.  I like the feeling of being independent from my family economically, and not having to rely on others for things.

I love that my parents are so supportive of me.  I love that my friends are so supportive of me.  I love that I can express myself through my art and music.  I love that every day, I’m slowly overcoming a little more of my depression.

But then I have friends who have a lot of things that I don’t.  Their parents not only love and support them, but also give them money.  Their parents can pay for their tuition single-handedly.  They can ask their parents for a new shirt or a bag of groceries every week.  They can buy $80 Nikes in July, and not have to wait for Christmas for when their parents can afford to give them to them.

But they’re not as well off as me.

Don’t get me wrong- some of them are just as happy as me.  In fact, probably happier in some ways, because they didn’t make a slew of bad decisions that they have to face everyday (but I kind of like that- I can learn a lot from it).

But others seemingly have everything, and they’re still miserable.

They’re cranky if they can’t see their significant other more than once a week- I get to see my significant other 3 times this months, but I don’t know when I’ll be able to see him after that.

They freak out and have a temper tantrum when someone makes a joke.  But I calmly joke and accept with someone even if they’re insulting me.  It’s even more fun when it’s a joke, and they’re not serious.

They worry about the 3 points they had taken off on an essay that counts for 5% of their grade.  I let it go and try to do better next time.

My best friend lives over six hours from my hometown now, and I don’t know when I’ll see her next- but she’s still one of my best friends.  They live with their best friends but they’re still insecure about their relationship.

They feel the need to smother people with affection to be sure that they aren’t going to lose them.  I am secure enough in my relationship and friendships that I know that they know that I’m there for them.  And I know that they’re there for me.

Sure, my family isn’t financially well off.  I live five hours from home.  My roommate and I aren’t really friends.  I’ve done things I’m not ready to tell the world about.  I’ve made more mistakes in the past 6 months than in the past 6 years.  I’ve disrespected myself.

But I’ve found a new respect for myself and the world.  I’ve realized that money means little to me.  I’ve realized that I have amazing friends who love me.  I’ve realized that I don’t need to put up with people who add nothing to my life.  I’ve met more people in the past 6 months than in the past six years- and that’s only a slight exaggeration.  Everyone that I’ve met- from people I barely knew like the kid with messy hair who stared at me creepishly to Jerry, whom I shared my entire self with; from the random girl with short hair I sat next to in American Democracy, to Hali, who has become one of my close friends- has impacted me in some way.  Obviously people like Jerry, Hali, Eric S, AJ, and Granger have affected me more than the quiet Korean girl in my Chinese 1011 class and the guy who randomly said “Beef” during the anthropology lecture in November, but even they played a role.

I’m so grateful for where my life is and where I’m going.

And I wish that others could see the positives in their lives rather than only realizing the negatives.


Think of your positives.



TiK ToK, Harry Potter style.

Andi. Jan 10, 2010

Wake up in the morning feeling like Ron Weasley

Grab my Cleansweep, I’m out the door
I’m gonna hit this city
Before I leave, brush my teeth with a bottle of firewhiskey 
Cause when I leave for the night im doing something risky
I’m talking – freckles on my nose, nose
Dirt on all my clothes, clothes
Splinchin all my toes, toes

Fall off playing a quidditch game, game
Pulling up to the Ministry 
Trying to get a little bit lucky

Don’t stop, make it pop
Harry, blow them all up
Tonight, Imma fight
Till we see the sunlight
Tick tock, My moms clock
But the duel don’t stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh (x2)

Ain’t got a care in world, but got plenty of ginger hair
Ain’t got no money in my pocket, but I’m already here
And now the witches are lining up cause they hear we got swagger
But we kick em to the curb unless they look like Hermione Granger
I’m talking about - everybody getting murdered
Death Eaters trying to curse curse
Gonna jinx them if they try to kill me
Now, now - we goin till they kill us all, all
Or the aurors shut us down, down
Aurors shut us down, down
Aurors shut us -

Don’t stop, make it pop
Harry, blow them all up
Tonight, Imma fight
Till we see the sunlight
Tick tock, My moms clock
But the duel don’t stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh (x2)

Voldy, you hex me up
You curse me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my wand up
You got me now
You got that wand
Yea, you got me

Voldy, you hex me up
You curse me down
My heart, it pounds
Yeah, you got me
With my wand up
Put your wand up
Put your wand up
No, the duel don’t start until I walk in

Don’t stop, make it pop
Harry, blow them all up
Tonight, Imma fight
Till we see the sunlight
Tick tock, My moms clock
But the duel don’t stop
Woah-oh oh oh
Woah-oh oh oh (x2)





It's a far improvement on the original song, I do say.  :D

Basically, it made me laugh ridiculously hard.

errbody's doing it.

Andi. Jan 07, 2010

Put your iTunes on shuffle, type the first 25 artists, no skipping because you don't want them there. Answer the questions.

1. The Killers

2. Armor For Sleep

3. All Time Low

4. Bright Eyes

5. Taking Back Sunday

6. The Fall of Troy

7. Boys Like Girls

8. Anthony Green

9. Mandy K

10. Chiodos

11. Say Anything

12. Bayside

13. 30 Seconds To Mars

14. The Academy Is...

15. Fall Out Boy

16. Now You Have Audio

17. The Higher

18. The Beatles

19. Louis XIV

20. Cute Is What We Aim For

21. Noris

22. Collective Soul

23. Jonas Brothers

24. Paramore

25. Underoath

What was the first song you ever heard by 6?
"FCPREMIX", probably?

What is your favorite album by 2?
What To Do When You Are Dead
By FAR their best. 

What is your favourite lyric that 1 has sung?
"Another head aches, another heart breaks- I'm so much older than I can take."

How many times have you seen 11 live?

What is a good memory you have involving 20?
I can't recall any specifically.  Seeing them live at Warped was cool...  

Is there a song by 3 that makes you sad?
Yessss. Lullabies <3

What is your favorite lyric that 14 has sung?
"When I was calling for the answer that you probably shouldn't know, when it feels like flames surrounding me here..."

What is your favorite song by 19?
"Illegal Tender", probably. :)

Who got you into 22?
They're my mom's favorite band, I grew up listening to them. 

What was the first song you heard by 21?
I couldn't tell you.  Something they played live.  I only remember specifically the song "The Changing of the Guard" from that show.

What is your favorite song by 4?
"At the Bottom of Everything".

What is a good memory you have involving 13?
Their show 3 years ago. OMG I feel so old.
But seriously, it was an amazing lineup of bands, and meeting them was fantastic. 

Is there a song by 23 that makes you sad?

What is your favorite album of 15?
Take This To Your Grave.

What is your favorite song by 8?
"Baby Girl", I think.  I like his stuff with Circa Survive better.

How many times have you seen 5 live?
Just once.
"He's so Asian!" 

What is a good memory you have involving 25?
I thought they were good live.  I saw them on November 4, 2008, which was also the day Obama was elected.  They had just begun "It's Dangerous Business..." (which is my favorite UO song) as I found out he was elected, too.

What was the first song you heard by 18?
...uh, it's the Beatles.  I have no idea.

What is your favorite song by 17?
"Histrionics", probably.

When you're sick, you have strange dreams.

Andi. Jan 05, 2010

I am no exception to this.

Last night's dream was hilarious and terrible all at once.

In my dream, my parents had gotten divorced, and my mom moved to Minneapolis.  Not too strange, right?

She had found someone new, after she and my dad had gotten divorced.

That someone happened to be 23-year-old Pat Brown of Sing It Loud.

I got really pissed at her and told her she was a cougar.  She responded with, "Andi, you don't get it.  Age doesn't matter."

So I muttered, "It does when the age difference is 26 years, and he could be your child."

Then, I packed up my laptop and some books in a bag, walked to the lightrail (like the metro/subway, but it's above ground), and went to the zoo (Note: In reality, the lightrail doesn't stop at the zoo, and I've also never been to the Como Zoo in the Twin Cities).  

I of course tweeted about this, and was greeted at the zoo by Nate Flynn, who was worried about Pat because he was dating someone the same age as his mother.

We walked around the zoo, and then I went to my friend's dorm to sleep for the night, since I apparently kept extra clothes there, because I lived at home, but if I stayed there too late, the lightrail doesn't run that late, and etc.  

Then, in the morning, Nate Flynn and Pat Brown picked me up from my friend's dorm and we went back to my house, where my mom's family was visiting.  My mom's sister Candy was yelling at my mom for dating someone 26 years younger than her and told her she was acting like a teenager, and that she didn't act this stupid even when she was a teenager.

But my mom just kept saying that age didn't matter, and that they loved each other, and that was all that mattered.




Oh, dear.

Sorry, guys-

Andi. Jan 03, 2010

-I'm super behind on the 365 day thing.  I haven't posted one for a single day of this year.  :(

On the first, I slept till 3pm and then went shopping and then went to bed again.  Saturday, I slept till 1030, worked 1-8, and then hung out with Eric.  Today, I worked 10-615, and then saw Avatar.

Tomorrow will be filled with photos.

Four of them.

They'll be representative of each day that I missed. :)

Since school ended and I had stuff to do, I hadn't been online much.

But the next two weeks I only work 3 times, and I only have three other things to do (eye doctor, mom's family's Christmas party, and Eric's dad's birthday dinner), so I'll have plenty of time for this site.

In addition to the being gone and not posting, I haven't been able to fully look at and appreciate and comment on your things, either!

And I'm even more sorry about that.  :(

See ya soon!


2009 in Review.

Andi. Dec 31, 2009


2009 was epic.

It was an exceptional year, from start to finish.

So much happened.

This will be long, and somewhat introspective (I think.  I am writing this intro prior to writing the rest of the journal, so I'm not sure if it will be or not…).

Enjoy my life. :D




-I spent New Year's with the McMahon's at their cabin in Mercer, WI.  I rang in 2009 with Eric, his parents and his sisters, Brooke and Morgan, Morgan's friend Karly, his mom's sisters Debbie and Jenny, Jenny's husband and daughters, and their family friends, the Claudes and the Pflanzers.

This is me and Eric on New Year's Eve.

-Barack Obama was inaugurated as president of the United States.

-At the end of January, I went with Eric to see Trivium, Coheed and Cambria, and, most importantly, Slipknot.  It was pretty damn epic.

-January 28, I was officially accepted to the University of Minnesota, Twin Cities.



-Sing It Loud came to my high school to be interviewed.  While most people in the class could have cared less, Rhianna and I were certainly and obviously excited.  My write-up of the interview ended up being the one that got into the school paper.

-Rhianna, Sarah and I went to see Sing It Loud, along with The Morning Light, This Providence, and Ludo at the Rave that night.  Pat awkwardly stared at my chest and it was awkward and obvious and awkward.

-Eric and I went to Twirp.  It was lame, so we left halfway through and had a dance party to 3oh!3 at my house.  That was also the first dress I purchased with all my own money, so I'll occasionally wear it to other things.

-I was taking pictures outside, and had my camera on the ledge of the porch, like I generally do.  But then the wind came and knocked it off… 20+ feet to the grass below.  It didn't shatter or anything, but it doesn't turn on.  I made my dad drive me to Best Buy so I could buy a new one.

-From the 13-16 of February, I went to Washington, DC with Junior Statesmen of America.  A guy in my Senate Chamber (we were divided into House and Senate like in real Congress to debate JSA-created bills) is seriously the next Morgan Freeman.  Needless to say, I did not get best speaker award in my room because of him.  And a kid named Aadi, who is spectacular at debating, as well.  

-Dan Gluszak left Envy on the Coast.  That's sad.

-Rhianna and I both won tickets to Taste of Chaos- I won through the Rave, she won through Buzznet.  She and I and Eric went, and though the only band I was stoked to see was Bring Me The Horizon (okay, shut up, I know), it was still super fun.  Eric randomly was interviewed by some guy with weird hair and people kept thinking he was in some band that had played earlier in the night.  Oh, and this annoying kid that had stalked Rhianna at Warped Tour in 2008 was annoying Mark about photography and Buzznet for like 10 minutes.

-I went up north with Eric's family again (but just his family this time) and we went snowmobiling and such.



-I guess I didn't do anything in March.  Eric had pneumonia.  I got sick for a little while.  I probably worked a bunch.  That's about it.



-I went to the Open House put on by the College of Liberal Arts at the University of Minnesota.  I ate at Chipotle and went shopping while we were in Minneapolis, too.

-Rhianna and I went to Southridge mall and interviewed the Frantic, and she wrote an article about them for our school paper.  There was a typo, and it said "Kyle Pee" in the article, and I LOL'd.  And no, they're not part of Radio Disney.  There was randomly a Radio Disney van at the mall that day.

-I went to the Dells with Rhianna, Erica, Jenny and Nikki.  We stayed in the Rain Tree hotel, and we walked around downtown in the Dells and we went to Robot World.

-I went with Eric to see I Set My Friends on Fire, Drop Dead, Gorgeous, and Alesana.  Funny story, Eric was going to go with his friend Leah, and then he invited me to go, too, because I like DD,G.  Then, once Leah found out that I was going, she decided not to come.  Bahaha.  At that show, I was somehow magically against the stage and I'm not sure why/how.  I got hit in the face by the guitarist of Alesana's guitar.  I was in front of the "hot" guy in the band.  Since there was no barrier, fans that crowd surfed were thrown onto the stage.  Alesana's lead singer grabbed one of the girls, put her legs over his shoulders, and mimed performing oral sex on her.  It was disgusting and degrading.

-The next day was the Madison date of the Guys, Guys, Guys tour.  It was SO fun.  The Summer Set, Artist vs. Poet, Friday Night Boys, The Morning Light, and Sing It Loud all put on an amazing show.  Best thing ever- members of various bands coming out and performing 'A Milli' at the end. 



-SWINE BREAK!  On a half day, we were ordered out of school during Block C (around 11am) due to a quarantine that was supposed to last a week.  My tire was flat, and I was going to pull off on a side street to change it.  Then, I was pulled over as soon as I got onto Silver Lake St (a fairly main road in town, I suppose).  Then, my tire ended up being basically welded to the bottom of my car, and it took my mom, brother, Eric, my friend Schaefer, three hours, and a pair of bolt cutters to get the tire off of the bottom of the car and then replace it.

-Swine Break was cut short due to the fact that the Health Department/school realized that they were being morons by closing the school for that long.

-Guys, Guys, Guys tour came to Milwaukee, but this time it was Stephen Jerzak, The Morning Light, and Sing It Loud.

-We went to Gurnee Mills mall in Illinois to see the Frantic play acoustic again, and they remembered us.  It was silly and awesome.

-I got my wisdom teeth out a few days later.  Although many people have hilarious stories about what happened while they were coming to after being on anesthesia/asleep for the surgery, I woke up immediately and was fully conscious.  I then missed three more days of school, in addition to the three I missed the week before for Swine Flu break.

-I won the Foreign Language award through the Kiwanis.  It was kind of awesome.

-Prom.  It was fun.  It was kind of a "Have you ever been alone in a crowded room?  Well, I'm here with you" - type of night.  I only wanted to be with Eric (and occasionally Vicky, but her date was trying to start drama and it was dumb), and so I didn't dance with any of the people that I'm not friends with (which is logical that I wouldn't dance with people I'm not friends with).  And then a bunch of drama started because of that, and then I decided that I'm completely cutting them out of my life, and stuff.

-Rhianna and I were driving to the Envy on the Coast/Taking Back Sunday show.  They were pulled over on the side of I-94.  We asked if we could help with their flat tire.  Unfortunately, we couldn't, but it was still awesome.  The show was pretty good, but the best thing to come out of that show was the fact that we now say, "You're so Asian!".

-Rhianna and I saw The Anytime, Farewell, Fight Fair, and Amber Pacific at the Loft.

-Sarah and I saw Noris at the Loft.  We were lost for two hours, and still miraculously managed to see them and then left shortly after.

-Forgotten Shadows played a show, and I took pictures.



-I dyed my hair blond.

-I graduated from high school.  That's always pretty important.

-I went to Pridefest with Sarah.  We saw Cyndi Lauper and a pretty great Drag Show on Friday, and then on Saturday we went back with Vicky and saw an even better Drag Show and a performer.  It was pretty awesome.

-I went to Tony's bonfire the same night as Pridefest.  We had a marshmallow fight and it was awesome.

-I went to Katie and Jenny's graduation parties, which were the same day.  I also worked an 8 hour shift that day.  And hung out with Eric.

This is me flying on Katie's trampoline.

-June 24 was awesome for most of the day.  I went to the zoo, donated blood, and then went to the Rave to see The Bigger Lights, Stereo Skyline, Friday Night Boys, This Providence, and Hey Monday.  Then, we went back to my car, and discovered that the window was smashed open and our purses were stolen.

-I went to Rhianna's graduation party for a short time, and then I left to go up north with Eric's family for the week of the 4th of July.



-Like I said, I was first in Mercer with Eric's family.  On the 4th, I learned to waterski.  It's awesome.

-I got home on July 7th, and then on the 8th, I left again for my college orientation in Minneapolis. 

-During my orientation, I met a kinda cool kid, who I didn't really hang out with too much but ended up talking to a lot on the 2nd day of orientation (the 10th), and then decided that I would end up being friends with him in college.

-I was home on the 11th, and worked and hung out with Rhianna.

-On the 12th, I left for Powerchord Academy.  I could seriously do a write-up of every day there and what happened and what I learned.  It was seriously the most life changing thing ever.  Ever.

I learned so much about music.  I learned so much about life.  I made some amazing friends.

My band was called the Checkout Line.  It consisted of me, AJ, Jay, Tom, Greg, and Tyler.  On Tuesday, Tyler had a family emergency and had to leave, so one of the counselors filled in for him on guitar for the rest of the week.  We wrote two songs and recorded one of them.  It was seriously amazing and spectacular and so fun.  I still talk to AJ a lot, and everyone else on occasion.

Time to own up?  Sure.  From the first day of camp, I kind of had a bit of a crush on one of the counselors (called "Producers", as they, well, produced our songs- helped us on them and whatnot).  Throughout the week, he ended up spending more and more time with my band.  He ate breakfast, lunch, and dinner with us.  On the day that we were working on cover songs or a third song (depending on which your band wanted to do), he chilled in our room for a long time and we had a lovely sing along and we all had a nice conversation. On the last day, he told us that we could all ask him one question, and he'd answer honestly and secretly.  I didn't know what to ask, so I ended up asking what he thought of me.  He told me that he thought I was cute and then a bunch of other stuff (like that I try too hard to look artsy, and that comment really bugged me, for whatever reason).  Oh, yeah.  His name is Jerry.

-Shortly after camp (and I mean, like, the day after I got home…), Jerry ended up talking to me on Facebook and telling me that he liked me, and I admitted to liking him.  He's 21, by the way.  I'm 18.  While it's not too big of an age gap, it's still strange, as I was about to go off to college, but he had already completed 3 years of college.  

-I went to the mall with Sarah and then I went home.  Then I broke up with Eric.  We both cried and it was sad, but I didn't want to cheat on him.

-I had my graduation party, and ended up getting back together with Eric again.

-July 31 was the date of Milwaukee's Warped Tour.  I saw Sing It Loud, Bayside, Missiles and Markers, the Mathletes, Bouncing Souls, and All Time Low.  We also met Claire (MusicIsCool)!



-August 1, Rhianna and Amber and I drove down to Amber's friend's house in Chicago.  It was a bit weird to sleep in someone's house, in their brother's bed, when we had never talked to them ever before.

-August 2nd was Chicago's Warped Tour.  We saw Sing It Loud, Saosin, The Maine, Bayside, Chiodos, Valencia, and NeverShoutNever!  We met Sara (sarajane) there, too!

-August 3rd, running on 2.5 hours of sleep, Rhianna and I drove 5 hours to Shakopee, MN to go to Warped tour.  We saw Bad Religion, Bouncing Souls, All Time Low, Sing It Loud, You Me At Six, Saosin, Bayside, and probably some other bands.  

-I entered a contest for an all-expenses-paid trip to San Diego to go to Warped Tour through Keep-a-Breast and Foxhead racing.  I won.

I. Won.  I won a free trip to San Diego.

This is the winning picture.

-August 21-23, we flew to San Diego, went to Warped Tour, and then flew home.  We saw Sing It Loud and All Time Low from the stage.  We saw This Providence, Tat, You Me At Six, Bayside, The Devil Wears Prada and Chiodos, too.

Oh, and we were like 2 miles from Mexico.  It was pretty legit.  We also talked to Nate Flynn for like 20 minutes, which was also legit.

-August 24-26, I sailed across lake Michigan (okay, I took the ferry) to the Grand Rapids area of Michigan to visit Jerry.  Overall, it was a super fun trip and a really good experience.

I cheated on Eric, which, as terrible as it is to say, was also kind of a good experience.  I also know that I will never cheat on anyone ever again.  I don't regret it… as sad as that is.  But our relationship wasn't doing well, and it showed me what was up.

-I hung out with a bunch of friends the last Sunday that I was in town.

-The last night I was in town, I went to Chili's with my family, and Sarah and Eric.



-September 1st I moved to Minneapolis, MN.

-September 2nd-7th was Welcome Week.  On September 3rd, we had convocation, and magically, I was sitting in front of the kid I said I would be friends with in college.  With neither of us recognizing the other at first, we ended up becoming friends.  And now, he's one of my best friends in Minnesota.

-I started classes on the 8th- American Democracy, Biological Anthropology, Chinese, and Gender Power and Everyday Life.

-Eric and I broke up on the 8th.  It was time.  Both of us liked other people, and such.

-Jerry and his friend Dan were driving to California, and they stayed with me the night of the 10th to the 11th.

-I began volunteering at the on-campus music venue, called The Whole, with my friend Eric Sannerud (the one I said I'd be friends with).  We saw a lovely band called Roma Di Luna at the beginning of the year.

-September 19th was my three year Buzznet anniversary!

-I went to see Zombieland for free with the Zombie Enthusiasts group on my campus.



-My mom and brother came to visit me, and we saw AFI.  It was an amazing show.

-I got an expensive haircut, but it was super cute and worth it.

-I began hanging out with my friend Eric a lot more, and with his friends/roommates, Jon, Will, and Jeremy.  We went to see an acoustic artist named Chris Koza, and Eric broke a window, and overall, it was very fun.

-I got a mole removed.  It wasn't cancerous, but… better safe than sorry.

-I went home for the first time!  I hung out with Rhianna, Amber, Adam, Randy, Ian and Eric on the 23rd, and Sarah and I went to see Noris on the 24th.

-On the 29th, I took the bus all the way to St Paul, to Station 4, to see Sing It Loud and Forever the Sickest Kids.  I met some cool kids there, and we ended up going to Kieren's birthday party afterwards in downtown Minneapolis.  Mason Musso was there, and Kieren hit on me and was also cockblocked from hitting on me by his friend Nick.

-On Halloween, I went to a casino for the first time.  I spent $1.  Haaaa.



-Jerry and I "broke up".  We weren't really dating, but we ended the awkward thing that we had… or so I thought.

-Eric McMahon came to visit me, and that was fun.  We went to the Mall of America, and ate a lot of food, and watched a bunch of movies.

-My friends and I all dressed fancy and went to the Rainforest Cafe.  Will and Eric wore dresses (Jon and Jeremy were supposed to… but they didn't.  Lame).  Then, after we came back, we played basketball and hung out for awhile.

-Justin Pierre and Josh Cain came to Minneapolis on the Dino Trail, and I went to their performance at a coffee house.  It was awesome and a half.

-I went home for Thanksgiving, worked on Black Friday, and went to see Friday Night Boys, We the Kings and All Time Low with Rhianna and Amber.  We also met up with whatsxherxname.  There were kids that didn't know the song "The Middle" by Jimmy Eat World, because they were too young.  It gave me a sad.

-I went back to school and spent a lot of time with friends.

-On December 11, I volunteered at the Heiruspecs show at the Whole.  They're kind of big in the Minneapolis area.  Then, I hung out with my friends Hali, Jackie, Krystal, and Mariah.  I spent the night in their dorm, and then we had breakfast with the guys (Eric, Jon, and Will).

-On the 12th, I went ice skating with my friend Granger.  I didn't realize it was a date, which kind of ended up making things very strange.  We then went back to our dorm and to his room and watched a movie and then we had a dance party with some of his friends.  Then I made bad choices.  The end.

-On the 13th, I went to my friend Jackie's house with Hali, Mariah, Jeremy, Will and Eric to celebrate Christmas.  We had a super fun time and her parents made tons of food and we watched A Christmas Story.

-It was finals week by that time!  I had already finished my Gender, Power and Everyday Life class (13 page papers can suck it), but I had finals in my other three classes.  I did really well on all of them, it turns out.  Also, most of the nights that week, I was in my friend's dorm, hanging out with Hali, mostly.  She and I and Jon and Will went to dinner one night, another night Mariah's roommate Kelli bought everyone pizza with her leftover FlexDine money, Eric's friend visited one night, and another night, Hali, Will, Jeremy, Jackie, Jon and I walked around and got food.  I love them all.

-On the 20th, I went home again.  That day, Jerry tried to get me to talk to him via webcam and such, but I wasn't having any.  Then Eric came over, and we ended up deciding to give our relationship another shot.  We had been talking so much the past few weeks, and he really, truly is one of my best friends.

-The 21st, Adam, Eric, Rhianna and Amber came over at various times of the day, and we exchanged presents and had fun.

-The 22nd and 23rd and 24th, I worked.

-Also, in there, I got a new computer!

-The 23rd, Jerry and I got in a pretty epic fight, and I think I won (eh, he probably thinks he won, but whatever), and we're (thankfully) not talking anymore.  Even though he called me on Christmas and told me to text him later that day (which I didn't).  Thank god, that's all over.

-I had a family Christmas with my dad's family on the 25th.

-I saw Eric's family for the first time since August on the 26th, which was nice, because I like them.

-I spent the afternoon/night with Sarah on the 27th, and we've decided that 9/11 was caused by Dark wizards.

-Tuesday, Rhianna and I went to Chicago to see my friend AJ's band- yes, the AJ from my band in July!  I saw him, and some other people from camp- Lucy, Dan, Matt- for the first time in six months.  It was crazy but weird but awesome.

-Today, Rhianna and I (and possibly Sarah?) will be going to Madison to see Stephen Jerzak.





Basically, 2009 was beyond fucking epic.

Hopefully 2010 can compare. 





Day 047; My Life is Great

Andi. Dec 11, 2009

Today, on ElRich's blog, he mentioned a website called MyLifeIsG.  It is comprised of wonderful, beautiful, user-submitted stories about why their lives are great.
Today, in lieu of a photo, I am compilling a list of all of the things that make my life great.

-A lot of my old friends list money as one of their reasons for not going to a better school.  I took out $20K in loans for my freshman year alone.  I'm going to end up with somewhere around $60K in debt by the time I graduate.  My dad is refusing to help me pay them off.  My mom, who works two part time jobs and doesn't make nearly as much as my dad does, is willing to help me out a little bit.  But when I pay off those debts, I'm going to be so happy, knowing that I did it.  I went to the college that I've wanted to go to since I was in 10th grade and that I paid off those loans myself.

-My dad was an alcoholic and a cocaine user in the 1970s/1980s.  In the mid-80s, he basically ran away from home after his wife cheated on him and divorced him.  He had a cousin living in Florida and his brother was in Texas, so he drove straight south without a decision of exactly where he was going to go.  His car broke down in Alabama, and a mechanic whose brother was a preacher at the church next to his auto shop took his car in in the middle of the night.  While the car was being worked on, my dad had no choice but to listen to what they said about God and turning his life around.  The mechanic was an ex-addict himself, and was in remission.  Once his car was fixed, my dad went to Florida and lived with his cousin for a year before coming back to Wisconsin, sober.  When he joined Alcoholics Anonymous in Oconomowoc, he met my grandma Mary, who in turn introduced him to my mom, who was in Al-Anon.
-My mom's parents were alcoholics, and her father abused her mother, eventually cheathed on her, and divorced her for a much younger woman.  When she was in high school, her family was barely above the poverty line, living only on alimony and child support.  My mom struggled with drugs and drinking and a douche of a boyfriend throughout her 20s.  She saught counseling and eventually joined Al-Anon.
If they hadn't overcome these horrible things, they would have never met and I would have never been born.

-The best relationship that I was in was the one that ended when it should have- it wasn't dragged on beyond its time for fear of breaking up.  It had a lot of fucked up things happen towards the end and after it ended, but I'm glad that I can still call him my friend.  We had a long talk about where our friendship was and where it should be, and we're on better terms now.

-I'm glad that I call all of my ex-boyfriends friends now, that we didn't let our past issues get in the way of where we are now.  Erick is in the army, training for medical-related things.  Aaron goes to UW-Waukesha; he still smokes weed and still tries to sell it to me every time we talk, but that's who he is, and I accept him for it.  Adam finally came out as being gay, and we've gone back to being best friends like we were in 10th grade.  Eric is going to UW-Milwaukee next year for business, and I couldn't be happier for him to follow his dream of getting into the music industry, despite what his dad wants for him.

-I had a long talk about relationships with a kid that I met at camp, who is my brother's age.  It was nice to pass on what I wish I'd had known as a sophomore to someone who needed the information.  I can't wait to go to his show on the 29th to see him again, he's one of the best friends I made at camp.

-My brother Evan is only 16, and he's already far wiser and more knowledgeable than I was at that age.  When I was 16, I had been cheated on twice, and I thought it was the worst thing ever.  But Evan had it way worse- his girlfriend had sex with my ex-boyfriend.  And he seems to be faring way better than I did.  But it kills me to not be there for him in person.  He's one of my closest friends.

-I realized today that the reason that I hate it here is that I don't like where I live.  I hate not being able to cook.  I don't really like my roommate; she and her new best friend are really judgemental.  I don't like living on the west bank, when almost all of my friends and classes next semester are on the east bank.  But I have begun to overcome all of this.  I have made friends in my building recently; Granger, Heidi, Kayla, Corbin, Sarah, and Allison are all awesome.  And I'm considered an honorary resident of Comstock (on the East Bank), and I'm included in my friend group from that dorm's secret santa.  Yesterday I went to tea with four kids from my Chinese class.  I discovered that I can have a conversation with literally anyone in that class and not feel awkward about it.  I'm going in next week to officially declare a minor in Chinese Language and Literature.  Once I get back from semester break, I'm going to try as hard as I can to find a job, off-campus.  I've been playing guitar more recently.  And it's all awesome.

-I read something on MLIG along the lines of "Soulmates aren't just lovers, they can be your best friends, too."  Rhianna is one of my soulmates.  :)

-I'm so grateful for all of my friends- Amber, Sarah, Vicky... just to name a few.

-My mom is my hero.

-I've met so many amazing people on Buzznet; Kaity, Kiley, Sara, Autumn, Claire, Natasha, and everyone else.  Kiley told me the other day that she thought of Buzznet as my security blanket.  Well, it's because of the people on Buzznet that it's like that.  :)


I have a great life, despite my depression.

Thank you all for making it just a little better.


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About Me:

I'm no one and everyone.
Our hearts all beat, and we all bleed, and we all walk the same earth and see the same skies and the same sun and moon.
But it always seems like the people we want most to notice us never do.
That's how I realized that we all are the same.

I support gay marriage.
I believe in God.
I'm not Christian.
Drama is for the stage.
I love the arts.
I have lots of opinions.
I like people that other people seem to hate.
You can leave now.


Music, Society, You.

Favorite Music:

All Time Low, Envy on the Coast, Motion City Soundtrack, Sing It Loud, The Academy Is..., The Audition

Favorite Movies:

Donnie Darko, Fight Club, Underworld

Favorite Books:

Diary, Digital Fortress, Harry Potter, Invisible Monsters, The DaVinci Code